Zim in Wonderland

Vacating...

2009-07-09T22:56:44Z

I leave for The Butterfly Valley tomorrow night. Not that anyone would've noticed, but I thought I'd say "see you" now since I probably won't have any time tomorrow. I'm determined to have fun and not let the unfortunate events get in the way, so we shall see...

The heat has melted my little brain.

2009-07-08T16:04:33Z

Prince Zuko takes his shirt off and...

And all the girls go...

=D

I would, too, but this is totally ruining it for me. It so doesn't work, people, admit it.

Catching up

2009-07-07T14:26:35Z

I wrote this long-ass entry at work, but it got messed up when I tried to post. Grr. Now I don't even know where to start, even though there isn't much going on. Let's see...

I'm leaving for vacation this weekend. My best friend Basak, one of her good friends Melik and I are going to The Butterfly Valley. This plan didn't become solid until Saturday, and then we met up and made plans and lists and stuff on Sunday. And then, on Monday, more people joined and our number went up to 9. And then, yesterday, it went up to 11. I only know 4 out of 10 of those people, so I'm guessing I can just ignore them if I don't click with them, but I'm still annoyed by how people invite themselves anywhere. I'm not gonna let that get to me, though.
On Sunday, I've also met up with thepriestkitten finally. It so didn't feel like it was our very first time meeting in person, and I had fun. We should definitely do it again sometime 'cos coffee+cigarettes+good company=my favorite times. Oh, and thanks to her, I didn't get lost when I got off the subway.
I haven't slept well in days 'cos Miss Sally doesn't let me. My sister hasn't been home for a few days now, and at night Sally's been attacking my legs and hair and begging me to play with her. I love her, and I know it's the regular kitten-thing, but seriously, guys. It gets very very frustrating when all you want is to SLEEP.
I'm gonna have to start looking for a new job in August because what I'm doing at my current job will be all done by the end of September, the latest. I feel quite ready for a change, but at the same time I'm scared shitless that I won't find anything good. Stay positive, Zim, stay positive.
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince will hit theaters here on the 15th. I want to see it as soon as I get back from vacation, but nobody wants to see it with me. Thankfully, I don't mind spending time alone.
This week's True Blood was a repeat, apparently. BOOOOOOOO YOU, HBO!
Apparently, Kirsten Stewart is knocked up, and RPattz is the knocker. Lmfao.

I think this about sums it up, and I should stop before it gets any longer.

Sokka = <3

2009-07-01T22:34:23Z

I'm so excited about this, you don't even know. I've started my Avatar marathon, and even though I've watched most of the episodes more than once, I don't get bored. And, seriously... SOKKA = <333333 He and the "fluffy snot monster" are my favorites.

I really don't have anything else to update about. You know what makes me really sad? Chuck Palahniuk is already picking out finalists to include in his anthology, and I have yet to write anything. Pffft.

Off to bed.

Yay.

2009-06-29T16:39:38Z

My shoes are finally here. Aren't they adorable? I got them from emandsprout on Etsy. She has so many more cute ones that I want.

This is the highlight of my day. My boss told me today that I need to prepare a 20-minute PowerPoint presentation for the thesis. She has to present it to the board in September. Preparing it is no problem since I already know the 300something pages by heart, but getting her ready to present it is gonna take time and patience. Oh, well.

I'm off to get True Blood's third episode. I'm glad I've only read the first book. Otherwise it would be completely ruined for me. Bill's as boring as always, Sookie is ruining Anna Paquinn for me 'cos she's so damn annoying, but Eric... Oh, Eric.

Lazy (waytoo)Sun(ny)day

2009-06-28T12:03:29Z

I think this one shows just how tiny she is. The whole PLAYPLAYPLAY24/7-thing is getting to us sometimes, but I think we're doing alright. The one thing is that she can't find her water even though it's sitting right next to her food. When she climbs on top of us and meows, we put her next to the water, and then she drinks. Weird.

Leave me a comment and I will give you a letter. Then, go to your journal and post ten things you love starting with that letter. Give your friends letters, too.

Naz, espaces gave me the letter A:

Apple (both the fruit and the brand)
Aunt
Ashtrays
Austen, Jane
Atwood, Margaret
Amanda Palmer
Angelina Jolie
Asylum tales
Alice in Wonderland
Alcoholic authors

People are "things," too. In case you didn't know.

She's home, guys.

2009-06-27T18:57:19Z

Sleep tight, Wendy. Welcome, Sylvia.

I've finally finished transferring my stuff. The way I can describe how I feel is that it's as if I was driving an old, rusty pick-up truck all these years, and then someone put me in a spaceship. I'm not exaggerating.

See how last.fm can detect my current song now? =D

RIP

2009-06-26T09:30:55Z

When my aunt told me this morning, I seriously thought she was fucking with me. A big part of my childhood has gone with him: doing the Thriller dance, putting band aids on all my fingers...

If I try to say anything more, I'll probably cry, so that's it.

More kitty love.

2009-06-25T19:19:13Z

These were taken by my sister, mimibalmi.

I'm in ur cameraz, kissin' ur lensez.

I'm in ur handz, lickin' ur fingerz.

Have ai got somethin' in my eye?

And, finally some BIG and GOOD news: my aunt and I went over my finances today (she's good at this stuff while I'm totally useless) and my brand new MacBook will be here on Saturday. See how I'm not using caps and not getting too excited?

Oops.

2009-06-25T10:10:36Z

Every time I get super fed up with work, I find myself here. How very typical, eh?

I just remembered I forgot to mention one thing about the whole Placebo experience... This is for the gig gang: remember that one British girl we used to run into at EVERY Placebo show, and she used to tell us she was following them all around the world? Well, that's no lie, my friends, because I SAW HER in line on Tuesday. She even recognized me, which is weird. And, boy, was she pissed.

So that's the random thought of the hour here. Back to work.

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-24T22:48:00

2009-06-24T20:00:09Z

I'm all upset about not making it to the show, so I ended up putting on Placebo, replaying the shows I've been to and pigging out on a pack of chips. And I don't even regret it because it felt fucking good, so did thepriestkitten's texts.

I've finally finished watching this. The only time I had was when I went to bed, and I always ended up passing out. Not tonight, though. I enjoyed it quite a lot, probably because I love Jane Austen. The cast was pretty amazing, too except for Anne Hathaway as Jane. She's always bored me, and I hated her portraying a brilliant writer. Oh, and, James McAvoy still doesn't do anything for me, but I won't deny that he's good at what he does.

Then, I've finished reading Augusten Burroughs's DRY-- I only had the last 50 pages to read, and it took me a god damn week to do that, which is rather depressing. He took something so common and boring and made it very funny and enjoyable to read. I love this guy. And I need to get the rest of his books, which I plan to do when I get the ticket-refund money.

Now I don't know what to read rest even though I have quite a few books waiting. Still, if any of you would like to recommend anything, I'm always looking for new stuff to read.

Lastly, Scrapbook 2009 has been updated.

Since I was born I started to decay...

2009-06-24T10:05:09Z

Now nothing ever EVER goes my way.

As you all know, I took the day off yesterday to go see Placebo. Husby and I got there around 4pm, and there were quite a number of people in line already. Around 4:45, this guy comes out and goes, "their equipment got held up at customs in Bulgaria; you guys are waiting for nothing." He had this stupid grin on his face, so nobody believed him. Husby checked their website and the ticket website and there were no announcements.

Then, around 5, they said it had become official and that the show was postponed to TONIGHT. On the bus ride over to Taksim Square, I thought and thought of all the possible scenarios, but there is NO WAY I can make it on time tonight, so I returned my ticket. That's the end of waiting forever and getting excited. FUCK KARMA.

I did meet up with Charlotte sinedelecta and her girlfriend, Grace. They've promised they'll take photos at the show for me tonight. And they'll be here till like the 26th of next month, so I shall see them again.

***

My friend Merih was in Turkey for a few days. Başak and I met up with her Monday night. You know you have something good going on with somebody when you don't see one another for more than a year, but the conversation picks up as if you were together just yesterday, and then you get all bittersweet when it's time to say goodbye again.

Some photos:

LtoR: Me, Merih, Başak.

I have to get back to work, but you know where mind's at.

Sally story.

2009-06-21T20:01:02Z

Sally: AI HAZ TEH GOLDEN SNITCH!

Teh snitch is mein, bitchez.

Seekerz.

Dreamin' of Edwardz.

Protecting teh snitch.

Quidditch is a tough game.

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-21T16:50:00

2009-06-21T13:50:14Z

If you're seeing this through LJ, please ignore it. I'm trying dreamwidth's cross-posting thingy.

...

2009-06-21T11:39:53Z

It's Sunday, and I'm working. I grabbed brunch with dad and sis earlier, and now I'm here when the weather is just lovely outside. Oh, well. I'm just hoping my boss gets here soon so I don't have to stay later than I should.

Reply to this with "WORDS!" and I'll give you words I associate with you. You explain them, and post the meme in your journal!

Mel squidpipe gave me:

1. Neurotoxic (I know I know, boring but I don't think I've heard you explain it before): The dictionary meaning of neurotoxic is "poisonous to nerves and nerve cells." My screen name used to be wickedeos for years, and I'd gotten sick of it, so I found neurotoxic when I went searching for a word that described me. I'm obsessed with trying to find something unique when it comes to things like this, and the word poison alone was just too boring and cliche.

2. Typewriters: I love them-- the way they look, the sound, the smell... And I prefer them to computers when it comes to writing because when I write on a computer, it feels like random typing. Typewriters make it more tangible and worthwhile.

3. Art: I'm actually honored you associted art with me because I always feel I'm useless when it comes to it. I've had endless conversations about this with most of my friends who are very good artists. They say being a writer makes you an artist, but I see it more of a craft. But then again, some consider crafts as art as well, so who knows?

4. Traveling: For some reason, people think I've traveled a lot, but I really haven't. I wish I could though. I still haven't seen most of the places I'd love to visit, i.e. Paris, Barcelona, Dublin, etc.

5. Knitting: I used to always say writing keeps me sane, but it's been knitting for the past few years-- you gotta admit, writing has the possibility to drive you insane at the same time. I love creating something from what looks like nothing. And I especially love knitting for friends and family, for those who appreciate the hard work put into it.

And now back to work.

TGIF.

2009-06-19T11:57:09Z

I must mention that I'm rather annoyed by the increasing number of social networking sites. I know I'm the one to blame for wanting to check them all out, but really, WHY?! Thanks to the lovely espaces, I have a dreamwidth.org account now, but I'm not feeling it. For the last 7-8 years, LJ has been the one I always come back to, therefore I have no intentions of letting it go soon.

/rant.

It turns out my friend Merih is in Istanbul. Yesterday, when I was bored at work, I logged on Facebook and messaged most of my friends whom I haven't talked to in a while. Turns out it's a good thing I did. I'm gonna meet up with her tonight, my Spanish lesson is tomorrow, breakfast or brunch with dad on Sunday then I have to come into the office in the afternoon, WORKWORKWORK on Monday, then I'm gonna ask for Tuesday off 'cos I want the whole day to myself for the excitement of Placebo-- it will be the first concert in 1,5 years I'm going to that I actually want to go to. Anyway... I'm rambling because I'm very fed up with work again.

This meme's stolen from withered_petals 'cos it looks interesting...

Copy and paste the above list into your journal, and bold the items that are true for you.

Father went to college

Father finished college

Mother went to college

Mother finished college

Have any relative who is an attorney, physician, or professor

Were the same or higher class than your high school teachers

Had more than 50 books in your childhood home

Had more than 500 books in your childhood home

Were read children's books by a parent

Had lessons of any kind before you turned 18

Had more than two kinds of lessons before you turned 18

The people in the media who dress and talk like me are portrayed positively

Had a credit card with your name on it before you turned 18

Your parents (or a trust) paid for the majority of your college costs

Your parents (or a trust) paid for all of your college costs

Went to a private high school

Went to summer camp

Had a private tutor before you turned 18

Family vacations involved staying at hotels

Your clothing was all bought new before you turned 18

Your parents bought you a car that was not a hand-me-down from them

There was original art in your house when you were a child

Had a phone in your room before you turned 18

You and your family lived in a single family house.

Your parent(s) owned their own house or apartment before you left home

You had your own room as a child

Participated in an SAT/ACT prep course

Had your own TV in your room in High School

Owned a mutual fund or IRA in High School or College

Flew anywhere on a commercial airline before you turned 16

Went on a cruise with your family

Went on more than one cruise with your family

Your parents took you to museums and art galleries as you grew up

You were unaware of how much heating bills were for your family.

Food talk.

2009-06-17T11:20:48Z

If you observe closely, you'll notice certain things about the people who are obsessed with watching what everyone else at the table is eating. I've always been very annoyed by this, but thanks to the lady I get to eat with every Wednesday, I've had fun. So...

They'll be so busy counting your bites that they'll usually miss their own mouth and jump up from the table with a very poor excuse like "Oh, I'm so clumsy these days; I could swear there was a napkin right here."
They'll push food in front of you (especially bread) and see if you'll have any because if you don't, they usually won't either. "You hate tomatoes? Oh, well. I've never really liked them either."
This is my favorite: they will make up excuses to be eating what they're eating as if you care. "Let me just put some bread in my soup so it cools down. I know it's lots of carbs and all, but it's too hot."

See what I mean?

I don't know what I've let it get to me all these years. Probably 'cos my father does the same thing along with dumbass comments about my weight. From now on though I'm gonna fuck with these people to the point where their little brains explode.

Death by Cute

2009-06-16T18:31:20Z

Yeah. Be prepared to die of cuteness...

Here's the newest addition to our family: Sally Daisy.

My sister and I brought her home yesterday, and today we got her registered at the vet's. She weighs 900 grams; it's insane!-- even her carrier weights 1,5 kilos.

Plus, our vet looks so much like Cate Blanchett with red hair that it's creepy. I was probably drooling half the time. Anyway... I'll hopefully have more photos soon to show you how tiny she is.

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-15T01:06:00

2009-06-14T22:07:20Z

I think I've got food poisoning or something. My aunt, mom, sister and her friend all ate the same things I have, but I woke up around 3am and barely made it to the bathroom to throw my guts out. I've been in bed all day, and I do feel a bit better, but not well enough.

I hate it when the timing sucks with these things because normally, I should call out of work tomorrow, but I can't because I have a ton of shit to do.

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-12T01:09:00

2009-06-11T22:18:13Z

I NOW OWN ALL 7 SEASONS OF BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER ON DVD. Yes, it needed bolding and caps. This means I have 2 sets of season 1, so I'm gonna sell one of them. The DVDs are region 2, so if anyone wants them, I'll charge $20 including shipping. If nobody from here wants it, I'll just put it up for sale online.

Gosh, though... Money+all of Buffy+a little present for a 10-page paper? It's HEAVEN. And the little present is an ashtray in disguise:

In general, I think I'm too happy for no apparent reason lately. Maybe my brain really has melted from the heat a lot more than I think it did. Plus, it took me a good 5 minutes to remember how to spell "disguise" correctly, so my theory is probably right.

Moving on...

If you've ever been to a Starbucks in Istanbul, you know how fucking crowded and loud they get. Usually the "loud" part is everyone speaking at the same time, and even though you hear them, they don't really interrupt your own conversation because it's just voices, the actual words are unrecognizable. USUALLY...

Today, I was reading at Starbucks while I was waiting, and this girl two tables down from me was SO DAMN LOUD that I now know when her sister's wedding is, what color dress she bought, how much it cost her and how she's struggling to find shoes to match them. Oh, and she really doesn't like the groom-to-be, so hush and don't tell her sister 'cos she'd be very upset.

Gimme a friggin' break, people.

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-10T23:25:00

2009-06-10T20:29:29Z

I've figured out why this place doesn't inspire me at all: everything is so fucking familiar that I can't find anything interesting to say-- I'd gotten bored with it years ago, and going back to the same thing was very, very unexpected.

I have, however, started writing again last night. My mother reminded me that I should just stop thinking about crap that aren't my problem and focus on myself. She also reminded me that this little autobiography-like text came out of what I've gone through here.

It was a good wake up call. Now let's see if I can pull it off, even though I've always felt very awkward letting my mother read my stuff.

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-05T16:23:00

2009-06-05T20:32:14Z

I met up with a few friends for coffee after work. They said I was very energetic and fun for how exhausted I've been. So I told them the truth: if I let myself collapse again, it'll take me another year to pull myself together. I think that's really how long it's taken me with the whole being-stuck-here situation. Only within the last month or so I've finally learned to suck it up and live with it. I don't know if I'm dealing with it the right way, but I'm not wrecking my brain thinking about it anymore, and I haven't given up either-- I've just stopped making long-term plans, the way I've always done. I try to only think about what I need to get done tomorrow and not think any further. Otherwise, I'm gonna sink very very low again, and that's neither pretty nor healthy.

Moving on, which can also be an example of what I do to not get depressed: I have to work on Sunday. Everyone just went, OH, NO! when they heard this, but I'm like "after all I've been through, working an extra day is NOTHING." Because when you think about, it really is nothing. The only part that's gonna be tough is that I'm going to a friend's birthday tomorrow night, and I want to stay 'till the end of it since she's going out of town the next day, and it will be very hard to get up early the next day. But guess what? I CAN DO IT.

Also, tomorrow morning I'm going to the post office since I didn't have any time to stop by during the week. Then I really need to get my nails and eyebrows done because I never had any time for that either.

I have no idea where to go or what to do for summer vacation. Bark and I talked about going to Amsterdam at the end of the summer, but I don't wanna get my hopes up because I suck at saving money. Oh, well...

I believe I've rambled enough, so I'm off, guys.

P.S. I'm entering the Green Card Lottery again this year, so please keep your fingers crossed for me.

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-04T16:26:00

2009-06-04T20:26:16Z

The new shoes.

Crappy cellphone pic.

And I'm off to bed.

Pfft.

2009-06-04T10:28:18Z

It's been raining all day today, and I absolutely love it-- I can actually breathe again. I'm very much stressed at work right now, so I'm taking a 20-minute break and browsing through the internet. I thought I should stop by here, oh well...

Stolen from hpnarnia

These are the rules (and no cheating!):

1. You can ONLY answer 'Yes' or 'No'.

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages or comments you and asks—and, believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming. Nothing is exactly as it seems.

Kissed any one of your LiveJournal friends? — Yes
Been arrested? — Yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? — Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? — Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yes
Held a snake? — Yes
Ran a red light? — Yes
Been suspended from school? — No
Experienced love at first sight? — Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? — No
Been fired from a job? — No
Fired somebody? — No
Sung karaoke? — Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? — Yes
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Yes
Kissed in the rain? — Yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — Yes
Saw someone die? — No
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — Yes
Smoked a cigar? — Yes
Sat on a rooftop? — Yes
Smuggled something into another country? — No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? — Yes
Broken a bone? — Yes
Skipped school? — Yes
Eaten a bug? — Yes
Sleepwalked? — Yes
Walked on a moonlit beach? — Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? — Yes
Dumped someone? — Yeh
Forgotten your anniversary? — Yes
Lied to avoid a ticket? — Yes
Ridden in a helicopter? — No
Shaved your head? — Yes
Blacked out from drinking? — Yes
Played a prank on someone? — Yes
Hit a home run? — No
Felt like killing someone? — Yes
Cross-dressed? — Yes
Been falling-down drunk? — Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — Yes
Eaten snake? — No
Marched/Protested? — Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — No
Puked on an amusement ride? — Yes
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — Yes
Been in a band? — No
Knitted? — Yes
Been on TV? — Yes
Shot a gun? — Yes
Skinny-dipped? — No
Given someone stitches? — No
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — No
Ridden a surfboard? — No
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — Yes
Had surgery? — No
Streaked? — No
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — No
Tripped on mushrooms? — Yes
Passed out when NOT drinking? — Yes
Peed on a bush? — Yes
Donated Blood? — No
Grabbed electric fence? — No
Eaten alligator meat? -- No
Eaten cheesecake? — Yes
Eaten your kids' Halloween candy? — No
Killed an animal when not hunting? — No
Peed your pants in public? — No
Snuck into a movie without paying? — Yes
Written graffiti? — No
Still love someone you shouldn't? — No
Think about the future? — Yes
Been in handcuffs? — Yes
Believe in love? — Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — No

neurotoxicdoll @ 2009-06-02T23:31:00

2009-06-02T20:41:43Z

I'm taking a 15-minute break from work, so I thought I should drop in and let you guys know that I'm still alive. I've been twittering more, not because I like it, but because it's easier with not having to worry about line breaks and bullets and stuff. Well, I'm still working myself to the bone... Tomorrow seems like it'll be the last super-busy day for a while, but I have to get through tonight first. Grr.

Mom got back today and we went to the mall to get shampoo. I ended up getting a new pair of cute flats and a BIG strawberry shower gel.
I put on sun block all the time, but my arms and face still burned. EW.
My boss brought me this silk scarf-like thing from Syria. It's bright blue; for some reason she thinks I look very good in blue, haha. Pictures later when I have time.
I don't know anything about video games. I've always sucked at them, so I couldn't care less. But my friend Hakan actually cheered me up on Sunday when he showed up with his Playstation. Apparently, I'm a natural at Guitar Hero, and I got to kill a bunch of big snakes and shit in another game. I can't remember what it was called, but Poseidon gave me some cool powers, and I met Aphrodite, but she was super-ugly.
I'm the only single person I know except for 2 other friends. It's starting to suck.
I finally got the sewing machine to work. So wooohoo.
I've just ordered 2 copies of the How To Be DVD-- one for me, and one for Kathy. English Sterling is so fucking expensive though.

I think that's all for now, guys. Gotta get back to work, unfortunately.

P.S. I might sign up and send in a story to Chuck Palahniuk. IF I can ever write again. By the way, thanks to all of you who got in touch with me to tell me about it. It's very flattering knowing my friends think I'd be worth it <3