It's seriously INSANE how busy I am. I had Friday off, 'cos it was a holiday, and I got up around 9am to get my nails and eyebrows done before going to meet up with someone I'm translating stuff for. Then, Saturday morning I woke up early as well, excited to get to my first Spanish class when I saw a text message on my phone, telling me it was delayed. So I switched to evening classes, which shall be starting on the 11th, and if they don't, the girl who PROMISED me this shit doesn't happen with them is gonna be one sorry motherfucker when I'm done with her.

Anyway...

Sunday mom and I went to meet up with our knitting group in Taksim. Guess what? Nobody showed up. This hasn't happened before, we're not retarded enough to show up for nothing, but I kept telling mom I was expecting this because, after all, it's Turkey. We can't even stick to a certain currency let alone a meeting time and place. Well, we walked around and spent a nice day anyway. And mom was actually successful at not letting me go into my favorite bookstore 'cos if she wasn't, I'd be broke right now.

Onto the pictures... They're mostly of Istanbul and are especially for my American friends, reminding them they should come visit me-- Hi, Craig; hi, Sara =)



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I think that's it for now.

It's amazing how much sorrow this city holds for me. It feels so big yet so damn small at the same time.

I've been super-busy lately. I'm working on 2 outside papers, and the anti-depressants aren't helping. They help me sleep, I'll admit that, but they're making my brain all cloudy, and I hate it.

I've also signed up for Spanish classes yesterday. So, starting from May, I'll be busy on the weekends as well.

Sometimes I feel like I'm taking on a lot more than I can handle, but then I think, I've had to do this ALL my life and have kicked ass most of the time. At least this time it's MY choice.

This is one sexy demon.

Now back to watching.

First off... JuJu-love, dreamxobscene:
I got a package today, and it had your name on it. Have I told you how much I love you? I'm sure I did, but I wanna say it one more time; you've totally made my day. I totally did not expect the Augusten autograph, and when I opened the bookmarked page and saw it, I started crying my eyes out. Then the card just made me cry more. It was all very happy tears though, so THANK YOU.

• She got me this beautiful hoodie. I must admit I freaked out a little bit when I saw the size said 14/16, but it FITS! As you can see in the photo, I'm still fat, but I used to be a size 20, so you have no idea how good this makes me feel.
• These knickers are the cutest. I'm going to a Rainbow Party tomorrow night, so I'm gonna wear the Saturday one and show it to her if I see a hot girl 'cos it says "stay the night." ;)
• And finally, my favorite, "Running With Scissors" autographed for ME by Augusten Burroughs.

( Answers for the Top Fives Meme -- everyone better look at this 'cos it took forfuckingever to put together! )

Hope I didn't fuck up any links.

The subject doesn't make sense, I know. I guess I just wanted to type "vagina."

The words side of my not being able to say NO to people I love to death: I have to take my grandmother to a fucking wedding tomorrow. A WEDDING! Yuck. The Turkish people on my friends list will understand better what kinda hell it will be. I've never been to an American wedding, but I'm pretty sure they're not worse than Turkish ones.

Pari finally put up some photos from last Saturday. There was one where the waiter took a picture of all of us, and he didn't put that one up for some reason. And yes, I've already started harassing him for it. Here's the one of me and Barkin (my husby) way before the whole the-cab-driver-stole-my-shoe incident.



Normally, I hardly ever get cold, but tonight I'm freezing.


ETA: Lots and lots of hugs and kisses to my JuJu-love, dreamxobscene, for suggesting me this album. I'm loving it to the point that if I kept ♥ing her songs on last.fm, the entire album would be in there. (So far, Best For Last is my #1.)

It's amazing how when you see certain people again after 13 years, you can still pick up right where you left off and have a great time. Below is a picture of me with three of those kind of people from the birthday party Saturday night-- we all went to elementary school together, and, the long-haired blond and I have known each other since kindergarden. Weird, eh?

I really am very much ready for a new year to start although I don't expect anything from it. It's at least a change.

This is what I look like when I wear the 3D glasses at the movies. Dork. But I think you can tell from my face how much weight I've lost, which makes me grin like an idiot.

This is another bracelet I've made. I actually kinda wanna keep this one for myself, but we'll see.

Had a great weekend with people coming and staying over.

People are coming over tomorrow night, too, and hopefully I won't be sober at 12am.

I'm trying to finish knitting a scarf for my boss so I can give it to her for New Year's with the beanie I've finished yesterday. I feel like it's going to take forfuckingever.

All I really wanted to say was that I'm still alive, still refusing to talk about what's on my mind 24/7, heh.

My sister dug up a shit load of our childhood pictures. Everyone keeps telling me I still look the same, and I guess it's true, but look how fucking REAL my smile used to be.

Let's start with this one though...


Apparently I was writing even when I didn't know how to.

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That last one cracks me up every time.

This was taken before the sun burned me to death. More later...

It took me forever to get the 2 rolls I shot developed. Not much came out of them though, but still. These are all from last year in Philly.


I'm pretty sure Craig took this one of me.

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If I weren't stupid, I'd get them developed as soon as possible so they wouldn't be supergrainy like this. Oh, well.